Wherein C.F.Barrón does his thing...

What Have You Been Up To?

Yeah, I can hear your judgment from all the way over here. It sounds a lot like "C.F.,where's the next part of your story?" and "C.F., I thought you were going to update weekly." and "C.F., why are you in my house at 3am?" Because I thought it was MY house, okay?!

Anyway, as the title suggests, I wanted to address what I've been doing in my time away from my little website. In two words, working/walking. At least that's the short version. The longer version is that I was job hunting for a long while, as I was eager to not work summer camps this year. (Look up caregiver's fatigue and you'll understand why) I lucked out, landed a temp gig at IDEO, (through an inside connection) and have been plugging away at the new job for the last month or so.  Now that the gig is almost over, I'm not sure what the next step will be, but I am hopeful that I'll get to a point where I can write at least somewhat regularly. There are a couple of offers on the table, but I'm unsure which one will lead to a higher word count in the long run. Time will tell, I suppose.

In other news, I got sucked into Pokemon Go pretty wholeheartedly. It's helped me shed half a dozen pounds, and I've been enjoying the experience of meeting other Trainers. I'm sad to say that the game has come with a fair amount of controversy, both in the world at large and in my personal life., but I have made a few new friends out of it and for that I am grateful.

So what's this all mean for you and the story you're waiting for? Well, it means that in a week's time I might actually have the time/energy to work on it. But until I have a day job that is both stable and not a complete drain on my reserves, I wouldn't hold my breath. Obviously, these stories aren't abandoned, they just won't be completed for a long while. I've slowly been trying to figure out why that is; because it used to be that I could spend hours on the same story, even when I was tired, but I can't summon that kind of stamina anymore. I've realized, though, that because my only projects are completely fiction now, I have little incentive to actually write them out. I already know what's going to happen haha. Meanwhile, Lilacs and a few of my older pieces were all written therapeutically. They were my method of understanding the things that happened to me and the means to move past them. It's just that, nowadays, life is a lot easier for me to digest. So my more recent stories, though fun and interesting, aren't the biggest priority for me because they lack the same purpose that my old stories did. There's not a whole ton for me to complain about anymore hahaha.

I hope this doesn't scare anyone away from the site, though. The goal has always been to write and post as much as possible. I'm just coming to the conclusion that "as much as possible" may very well mean once or twice a month.  Again, time will tell, and in the meantime, thanks for sticking with me.

-C